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freethebluebird
Youj guys, i reaaly really really really really realrly reallyy like LAs Vegasd andk I reakky really really realy really really love m y boyfrie nd.

What I m Gratedful For Todagg: VEGAZS!

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freethebluebird
Every time I think I can't throw up again, I do it.

Oh, man, you guys this is so so so so bad. :(

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freethebluebird
Noah wasn't having the best day, so I went over to see him last night and I came back this morning to get my stuff for class.

And I have a roommate now?

Her name is Daisy. She seems nice! We didn't get to talk much, but she said she wanted to come to the 20's party tonight. Mush, I'm so so sorry, I know it was rude to invite her without asking, but when I walked in she was just sort of sitting on the floor, drawing on her fingernails with a glitter pen, and I felt kind of bad. And she's loaning me a costume!

I do think she thinks that LiveJournal is Google though, and I don't really know how to tell her that?

What I'm Grateful for Today: Party tonight! Yay!




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freethebluebird
Noah's telling me not to worry about him, but I really can't help it. :(

He's been really tired for a couple of days, and I guess he's really busy with school and his internship. But something just feels weird or maybe just a little bit different?

Maybe the dress was a little much after all. But it seemed like a good idea at the time? It seemed like maybe the first step to getting myself where I need to be?

Because maybe I'm just too much work the way I am right now?

I know a lot goes over my head, and I know I'm not like most girls my age. Jeez, I get the feeling if Rae or somebody was in my shoes, she probably would have done it with him that first night. I guess they definitely would have by now? Or maybe not. I just don't know how "relationships" are supposed to work. I've never done this before.

I care about Noah a lot. I really, really, really do. More than I ever really have before about anyone else. When I look at him, my stomach kind of starts to hurt, but in a good way? And I am pretty sure that when I go through with it, I do want it to be with him.

But I'm really, really, really, really scared. I can't remember the last time I've ever been this scared about something.

Does he think I'm a weirdo for being a virgin? Most girls my age aren't, right? Does that make him nervous or... I don't know. He's so sweet and so great and always gets this smile on his face when he looks at me that I think might just be mine, just for me, and nobody has ever ever ever looked at me like that before my whole life.

I feel like I might have done something wrong, and he's just too nice to tell me. I want to ask him! If I did something wrong, I want to fix it, but I don't know how to ask him.

My head is kind of a mess right now, isn't it, ha ha. I'm not even sure what I'm upset about, really... I just worry about Noah, and now I worry about me.

I'm such a goober sometimes.


What I'm Grateful For Today: Noah Flake.

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freethebluebird
Hoo boy. I must have thought I was Supergirl when I made out my class schedule. Four classes on Monday/Wednesday/Friday? Eeek!

I'm really enjoying all of them, though. My last one starts in about an hour, so I got to go back to my dorm and rest for a bit and get a little something to eat!

Yesterday, I "LARPed" with Noah. It's sort of like a play where you dress up in costume and tell a story, but you make it up with everyone else as you go along. I got to make my own character, and I met a lot of really fun people. I don't know if I was that great at it, but nobody made a big deal if I messed up. They all helped me out when I needed it.

I had a blast! I wouldn't mind being Miranda every now and then. :)

We went to dinner with the rest of the group, and then Noah and I went back to the dorm to talk (I'm so sorry the power went out on you guys! Hope everyone's okay!). And then I guess I was just so tired from running around all day? Not sure, but I fell asleep there!

I got a good night's sleep, though, which was good, because I don't think I would have been able to stay awake in my first class I didn't. Eight AM is pretty early, now that I really think about it.

Mush, I heard that they found your hamster! That's so great! You must have been so worried about him. :(

And I hear that you all have a new person in the Refuge! Hi, I'm Brielle! Sorry I wasn't there to say hi when you moved in, but it went well. They're really nice people over there, so you'll have a great time.

I'd better get a little snack before it's time to leave again!

What I'm Grateful For Today: Dame Miranda the Super Spy! Ha ha!

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freethebluebird
I just got back from "mani/pedi" day! I've never had my fingernails painted before. It feels a little funny. My fingers feel just a little bit heavier than they're supposed to be. I usually bite my fingernails, too, so I've started to do that a couple of times and had to stop myself. I don't want to mess them up already. Besides, I don't think that would taste very good, ha ha.

Mush wanted to paint them with gold glitter, but I didn't think that was really me. So he did very, very light pink instead! I don't know if it's something that I would be able to do all the time, but it's really pretty to look at. I keep looking down at my toes and wiggling them and laughing to myself, ha ha.

Maybe I shouldn't say anything? But I just wanted to let you guys know that I really like you all, and I don't know how I can thank you enough for making me feel at home. If I did something or said something that made anybody upset, I really didn't mean to, and I hope that you can forgive me?

That's all, I guess.

What I'm Grateful For Today: Everybody I've met over the past couple of days. :)


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What I'm Grateful For: .... :)

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freethebluebird
Oh my gosh. I just woke up. Just now.

Last night got a little bit crazy! Or a lot crazy, ha ha! I'm really sorry if I said anything weird or did anything bad. I think I was drunk? I'm still not really sure, because I don't have a headache today, and isn't that supposed to happen?

Oscar, I'm really really really really really really sorry!

I had fun, though. Especially the last part.

Better get ready for my meeting! I'm going in to talk to my comparative religion adviser this afternoon. I've read his book on Buddhism! It's pretty amazing.

What I'm Grateful For Today: Not being a hallucination after all. :)

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freethebluebird
These shoes have really, really, really high heels. But I just walked from one end of my room all the way to the other without falling down. I tripped a little, but I stayed up! I still can't do that thing that Rae does where she kind of shakes her butt back and forth when she walks, but at least I can move.

Rae, I really can't thank you enough for taking me out today. No one's ever done anything like that for me before, and I had such a good time with you and Oscar. I wish we would have had time for me to see that jumpsuit thing you guys were talking about.

And there's a party tonight! Wow, I don't think I've ever been to a party two days in a row before. Guess I'd better enjoy it while I can, though, since I'm going to be working so hard to catch up come class next week.

I guess someone is going to tell me what a "broga" is?

Now I'm going to go practice walking more! I have to learn to "work it."

What I'm Grateful For Today: Happy accidents and new friends

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freethebluebird
Holy bejeezes. I just woke up. I haven't slept past eight o'clock since I was ten.

Well, this kind of knocks my routine and my plans for the day into the dust, but I actually had a lot of fun last night. I might have made some friends? The girl who lives across the hall from me and two of her friends. They're gays! They took me to a party and I watched people play "beer pong." I don't really get it, but it was a blast to watch.

I have definitely not met people like this before. They don't wear a whole lot of clothes very often. At one point, somebody was dancing in his underwear with a rope. And I had a very nice talk with two very nice boys who were not wearing shirts for some reason.

Well, now I think I have to go and brush my teeth and get ready. Mush, one of the gays that I met, is taking me shopping for an "LBD." That means "little black dress."

What I'm Grateful For Today: New experiences with friendly new faces.


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